Finding Balance In A World Off Kilter
Jan. 14th, 2025 10:06 pmI have a post going viral on Bluesky, and it's weirding me out. I found the article via the Vote Dem community on Reddit and posted it with a short comment on my Bluesky account. It was about Russian disinfo agents/bots migrating to Bluesky, and I posted it thinking that it'd be seen by a few friends. Now it's been reposted thousands of times. I'm glad that people find the post useful, but I wasn't prepared for this much attention. Hopefully it'll die down soon so I can go back to my normal (read: boring) existence on the platform. I suppose the upside is that I'm going viral for something good, rather than something silly I said, or my words being taken out of context. Ah, the perils of microblogging...
My goal of finding balance in 2025 is already being tested a bit. A friend of mine is going through a rough time mentally and has been since November. The thing is, most of their problems are due to systemic issues. I've been helping out when I can, but the fact that I can't do more is deeply frustrating. I want to do more. My brain goes into overdrive when my friends or family are hurting; I try to figure out ways of bringing in more money or canceling plans so I can dedicate more time to help them. But I did that too often last year, and it left me in a state of exhaustion and burnout. I can't spend this year doing more of the same.
And yet, the need goes beyond one friend, one group, one life. With everything going on in the world, it can feel like I'm getting pulled in hundreds of directions. Who do I attend to first? What do I do? Who do I help, and in what order?
I feel that right now, the answer for me is to focus on my community primarily - family, friends, neighbors. My aunt has co-founded a food pantry and free cafe in a town near her, and she sent out an Amazon Wish List via our family chat today. I've been spreading the link around - you can find it here - and I'll probably purchase something from it before the week is out. Maybe next week I'll donate something toward helping families who were displaced and rendered homeless by the Los Angeles wildfires. And I'll keep checking in with friends.
Not sure where I am in that scenario, but that's all part of the learning process.
I hope I have enough faith to let go once I've done what I can.
In the meantime, I'll stay here under a warm blanket and watch the snow come down.
My goal of finding balance in 2025 is already being tested a bit. A friend of mine is going through a rough time mentally and has been since November. The thing is, most of their problems are due to systemic issues. I've been helping out when I can, but the fact that I can't do more is deeply frustrating. I want to do more. My brain goes into overdrive when my friends or family are hurting; I try to figure out ways of bringing in more money or canceling plans so I can dedicate more time to help them. But I did that too often last year, and it left me in a state of exhaustion and burnout. I can't spend this year doing more of the same.
And yet, the need goes beyond one friend, one group, one life. With everything going on in the world, it can feel like I'm getting pulled in hundreds of directions. Who do I attend to first? What do I do? Who do I help, and in what order?
I feel that right now, the answer for me is to focus on my community primarily - family, friends, neighbors. My aunt has co-founded a food pantry and free cafe in a town near her, and she sent out an Amazon Wish List via our family chat today. I've been spreading the link around - you can find it here - and I'll probably purchase something from it before the week is out. Maybe next week I'll donate something toward helping families who were displaced and rendered homeless by the Los Angeles wildfires. And I'll keep checking in with friends.
Not sure where I am in that scenario, but that's all part of the learning process.
I hope I have enough faith to let go once I've done what I can.
In the meantime, I'll stay here under a warm blanket and watch the snow come down.